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everytime ii wish
to be the best of myself
and finding the REAL me
so that ii can be the REAL person ii am today
Monday, August 6, 2007

long time never update. imagine since the day ii just put up my exam schedule into my blog. seeing it makes me stressed and emo. next week marks the week of the start of my schools semester's exam and everyone is studying like mad, memorizing what they have to memorize like formulas etc. for me ii have 3 papers and these 3 papers can easily kill anyone by studying because the contents is really very heavy to understand and apply.

so now ii am here slacking again. if not ii will be stressed and then will not feel like studying and then my exams will fail. but for now lets not talk about my studies but rather something else like what happen last week.

last week we had our monthly rage berry jam. ii went hoping it will turn out good. but obviously it did not. the theme was the conditions of our heart. and we in the beginning was asked to think of words to represent our hearts condition towards different aspects. in the middle of this, my mind was totally confused with emotions that ii was beginning to become emo. ii tried to control in the first place but because it was overwhelming ii could not so ii just sat at my sit and literally stared into space. at that time, ii was thinking how did ii pull through whenever people asked me how was ii. and everytime ii would say that ii am fine but actually it is all fake. ii would just smile at that person and look as if ii am alright in a sense. truly enough it is really tough acting in front of people that ii am fine which actually ii am not. how did ii always been able to do that in the first place? maybe not to let others be worried and concerned. this even happens towards my parents. serious.

umm. ii am not going to talk about this anymore. continue to act as ii am.

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